humble boldness. humility before boldness.

how to find a job?

1. humble yourself

2. pray really hard

3. look everywhere. including unexpected weird places

4. repeat and never give up

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periods end statements in order to prevent a run on/off of information. just like that periods is where i end. periods is where i begin.

i heart sewing machine. you rock my pants into shorts

I don’t know, i laugh every time i see this. never gets old.

now i gotta justify myself by going a lil deeper. the obvious answer might not give you credit. God wants us to accomplish many wonderful things in the time we have on earth. sometimes we find ways to complete objectives such as recognition, and speech and we do achieve it, but what He wants might be for us to go through a process, like showing work on a math problem, and we will find a deeper meaning within an accomplishment. such as a deep trust in Him. blah don’t know how to say it. 

Finals are done but sure doesn’t feel relaxing yet. i want the beach! i went to a company barbeque yesterday. Boss’s 6yr son called me a grown-up. haha i feel so different now. being labeled as a grown-up is one of those things. don’t know if i should be glad or…yeah i should be glad. 

i’m awake now trying to win a bid on ebay. Olympus 790sw. waterproof, shockproof, freezeproof, sandproof camera. i think its perfect for me. 

in the past few days, i took my bike apart and broke the bearings, hacked my iphone to 2.0, saw fireworks at disney, played with modeling clay, did a lot of work with the sewing machine. i’m still working on my business cards and i kinda wanna make a yearbook for impact. wouldn’t that be cool.

time flies, its almost august. i wanna fly.

i should be…

studying and working on my final papers but instead:

the third death note movie is better than i expected, i the vietnamese Near. Avatar is finally over. gosh, most addictive nickelodeon show ever. i can’t wait until finals are over 5 days and 13 hours. haha but yeah after finals there’s so much things to look forward to. I’m gonna to finally go ride the nemo ride and climb up the mountain and see the six different colored flags. monday after next is shopping day! me finally gonna go buys pants. wow that just sounded like i’m not wearing any pants. well anyhow. quality time with a very bright individual always feels good. so now, all i have to deal with is 3 essays, 2 history exams, a critical thinking quiz and a test on general knowledge. somewhere between those, i’m going to squeeze some time to share a message to classmates randy and edward. blah i think its going to be like squeezing oranges with my bare hands. 

pants, shorts, shoulder bag, bracelet/ hand jewlery, shoes. $300 might not be enough…gotta work harder. 

So Paul and Barnabas spent considerable time there, speaking boldly for the Lord, who confirmed the message of his grace by enabling them to do miraculous signs and wonders. -Acts 14:3

i don’t remember how i came across this verse but yeah, i like it lots. i really want to levitate and sometimes i ponder about randomness like. actions don’t speak louder than words because actions are not spoken. i felt so stupid after my random daydreams. in the daydreams i would be sitting under a tree or on a beach and pondering away at freaking total uselessness. 

 

long one but here’s me joking away: artists are very competitive and very self-provoking people. yeah hate me for creating a sterotype. artist who probably be thinking “everyone is competitive and…maybe not self” and non-artist would be like “thats so true” and non-artist who act like artist would be like “i said that before, why u stealing my stuff”. and people who really don’t care would be like

evolution= turn love backwards + a you in action. so that means evolution - you in action is love backwards. so that concludes love is you going forward in action. made no sense.

i tried and failed making it.

i want a rock ring!

hey, i’m human. i can make a different. i can change the world. 

so i’m gonna start my own campaign: A Message Can Change.

hm…my birthday is coming up and i’m a size 3….haha jk

exciting tomorrow.

after three weeks of laziness, i’m finally going back to work. i am going enjoy my day tomorrow welcoming and checking patient in. i am going to block out all the gossip and drama at the office and concentrate on what i have to get done. The money is what i really really need. hm… also, sarah’s flight arrives tomorrow and that means hiking soon or some extreme nature stuff. haha This summer has to be pack to the bone. 

i can’t believe i’m almost turning twenty. i can’t believe i’m still nineteen.

the irony. don’t want to be old but want to be treated as an adult.

i want to find a place where i can learn sword fighting. 

i want to find a place where i can learn modern dance.

i can’t believe how good people draw on facebook graffiti.

i can’t believe how fun it is to play with modeling clay. sculpy.

i’ve switching brands of cola. the red cans weigh more than the blue ones. 

just bought a 24 pack Nascar Pepsi.

listening to coldplay’s newest album. and stealing my neighbor’s internet. 

today is july eleventh. 7-11 is giving out free slurpees for free. kinda cool. 

i’m going to use my free six flags ticket and go alone. i think it’ll be fun.

not enough to go on my nature trip so going to do the next best thing. get a packed picnic lunch box from Maria’s and then head out up the mountains and hiking it is. mmmhmm….calamari italian salad. yum yum.

i want to be good at something. anything.

 

PS: Love

love is deep, sometimes too deep, to a point where no one knows whats going on.

hancock: the love story in the movie is very deep… no idea what to think of it.

A Life with no Back Up Plans

Give me faith to believe in Your goodness and promises for me. I will not fear. Forgive me. I will stand strong. right next to You. You are good. 

 

writing more is always hard…but all i really want to say is:

i want to run after one thing at a time. i change my mind too much. i need to stick with it and God will show his goodness. yep.